Table of Contents Main Page Prologue Synopsis

Chapter 1	– April 1, 1988
	Omega, Statement to Oregon Governor’s Commission Spring 1974 – Meet Jess, clinical psychologist – Spring 1976 – at McDonald’s
Chapter 2	– December 1970 to October 1973
	The beginning – Sinequan – Dammasch State Hospital – Forced to resign from teaching the deaf position – Side-effects from anti-psychotic drug – A “calling”
Chapter 3	– February 1974 to April 1975
	First sketch adapted Star of David – Crisis Unit at OHSU – Dr. C., psychiatrist Depression
Chapter 4	– Spring 1974
	Day-by-Day House and Jess, clinical psychologist – Dreams – Start Diary Out of depression
Chapter 5	– Early Background
Chapter 6	– Summer 1975 to March 1976
	Work with Jess – Rorschach – Sister’s hospitalization – Succumb to “calling” – New feeling towards Jess – Winter ’75 -’76 – Pose my thesis
Chapter 7	– March 1976
	Continue Work with Jess – notes from altered state – Woodland Park Hospital Decision for personal research
Chapter 8	– Mar 8 to May, 1976
	Letters to Jess
Chapter 9	– October 1976
	Writing – Saturday Market -Tarot card reading – Altered state – Visual hallucination of father -Taken to Dammasch in handcuffs
Chapter 10	– November 1976
	Dammasch State Hospital – The Marine – Another diagnosis
Chapter 11	– 1977 to March 1980
	Job at Library – Jess goes on sabbatical, travels around Europe – Discover real name – Jess leaves to get Ph.D. Relatives “mental illness” etiology
Chapter 12	– March 1980 to August 1980
	Altered state notes – Archetypes – State Hospital at Salem – Letter to Jess
Chapter 13	– June 1981 to Fall 1983
	Las Vegas – Back to birthplace in Oklahoma – Jan,’83, Letter to Jess – Teleology – Lindy
Chapter 14	– January 1984 to August 1985
	Make an album of my songs – First compliment from my mother in my life – Oklahoma City Hospital – Letters to Jess – Continue research of my mind
Chapter 15	– August 1985 to May 1986
	Awakening at Dallas and synchronicity – Discover fantasy – Letter to the world – “Big” dreams – Veterans Day letter to the editor – Summation – Letter to Gorbachev (after Chernobyl)
Chapter 16	– June 1986 to March 1987
	Return to Oregon – Summary of altered states – Locate Jess in NYC and re-establish contact – Begin emotional separation from Jess – A psychic
Chapter 17	– April 1987 to September 1987
	Letters to Jess – Get teaching certification back – Travel across U.S. with group Visit Washington, D.C. – Visit Jess in NYC – Letters to Jess
Chapter 18	– September, 1987 to December 1987
	Connection between “new” science and my “world-view”- A spiritual psychology Co-creators – Eighth Day of Creation – Continue separation from Jess
Chapter 19	– February 1988 to July 1989
	Activist Activities – Rick’s death – 2 important Letters to Jess “Consumer” trip to Salt Lake City “Consumer” trip to Columbia, South Carolina “Consumer” trip to IAPSRS Convention in Miami, Florida “The Dance” Letter to Director of Research Division at NIMH
Chapter 20	– A Productive Citizen – 1990 to 2014
	1990 Meeting with John Weir Perry at his home 1991 Start Teaching HS at School for the Deaf in Little Rock 1992 School trip to NY City – Visit Jess – One more step in separation 1997 trip to NYC – 2004 retirement from ASD – Back to Oklahoma 2004 to 2011 work with deaf student in public school – Retirement 2011 in Oklahoma ADDENDUM – Mysticism

SINGLE ITEMS Poetry Uncovered Poetry Origins…of Eighth Day …Adapted Star of David Bibliography – Reading through the years Letter to Director of Schizophrenia Research Division of NIMH, 1989 MeToo Article for Psychiatric Survivors Newsletter Activist Letter Activist Writing from Chap 18 Poem on the Oklahoma City Bombing The Marine Letter to Gorbachev, USSR, May, 1986, Chap 15 My Songs